5.02.2009

Trust, Pain, and My Father

Had some real deep conversations this past week with some friends:

What in my life has hurt me?

How have I experienced rejection, alienation and abuse?

What am I afraid of?

Do I still feel the effects from these things?

Where do I find it hard to trust people?

Where do I find it hard to trust God?

Are these emotional scars and painful experiences directly related to the places where I mistrust my heavenly Father?

(Check out Floyd McClung's book The Father Heart of God)

3 comments:

WTF?! said...

PS It might be helpful to actually sit down, and thoughtfully, prayerfully answer these questions...

I don't normally ask these types of questions very often, (I am definitely an action oriented person) and I was somewhat surprised, and greatly blessed by the conversation I had with my friends.

Fergie said...

I have a friend who does theophastic prayer. We started asking some of these questions during our time together. It is odd how God brings up things that seem insignificant until we start to pray about what the repercussions of them are now, decades later. Your post seemed to fit in with that...

Brittany said...

I feel like we've really been focusing on this lately in women's group too. Either that, or God's just really stirring my heart. And I think Fergie is right, there are things which may seem insignificant, but they go so much deeper than we realize. And I think they can definitely keep us from trusting God.

I know personally for me, there have been times in my life where I've said 'it's okay, it's just the way it is,' to some really painful things. I was blessed to have some women pray over me who told me it's okay to say it wasn't okay.

Knowing the things that keep you from God is just the first step though. It's a lot harder to reconcile some of those things. But I think I trust God more now that they're been brought up because I find myself saying 'God, I have NO idea how to feel about this, can you help?'

I am always amazed at how we function as a community. It was cool to see a post about this.